Sick of Sickness

UGH!  I cannot focus on anything and trying to think just hurts my brain. It is always difficult during allergy season to determine whether the sore throat is from nasal drip or actual sickness. This time it was actual sickness. When I started feeling feverish I knew I was doomed. So for the past two days I have either a) been asleep in bed or b) been laying on the couch mindlessly watching television.
Sickness makes me weirder than normal. Suddenly life is awful. I don't mean the ordinary... life stinks but oh well; I mean the sobbing uncontrollably because... well, you name it and I'll cry about it. I just can't handle anything. Ordinarily I pride myself on being strong enough (most of the time) to handle what life throws my way but when I'm sick, I can't even handle teasing. I hope my final battle with this bug is over tonight because I'm so done being this emotional.

Argosy University

That I thoroughly dislike school is a well known and well established fact. However, Argosy University is really quite an excellent University. I'm always astounded that this school found me by chance. In an puny effort to find a scholarship I signed up for some weird website that I don't remember and it said that you had to pick a school in order for them to tell you about available scholarships. I looked at the list and it didn't have ANY of the schools I was thinking of attending. Namely T.W.U.; U.N.T. or U.T.A. But they did have Argosy as the first school on the list. I'd never heard of this school but figured what the heck I'll just put that school down and then try and get the scholarship. Well, a few weeks went by and I kept getting a phone call from a number I didn't recognize, so I wouldn't answer, they'd leave a message and I'd delete the message. Finally, tired of their pesteracious phone calls, I answered to tell them I wasn't interested. I talked to Mark and he is an excellent sale's person. He started talking to me and asking me about my career goals and such and when I mentioned I wanted to go into Elementary Education he said we don't offer that but we do offer Liberal Arts and Psychology. Ha, the two degrees that I personally feel are cop-outs because you don't know what you want to do. However he convinced me to at least come tour the school and see if I'd be interested. I went with my mom, which is strange because I've been too proud to involve my mom in any of my schooling decisions because: "I can do it myself!". What a joke, anyway I was very impressed with Marks presentation and when he pulled out the folder for a Liberal Arts degree I said, I really don't want to pursue that. He said, alright what would you like to pursue? Psychology, Business, Criminal Justice? Hmmm, Psychology, no, Business absolutely not, I do not have a mind for business, Criminal Justice because that sounds like the most interesting degree. Alright, let's do criminal justice. And the rest is history. Most of it is online, which is very difficult. Seriously I've never made such bad grades in my entire school career BUT, I've also never had such incredible teachers. Professor Benny Barrett has had the greatest influence of any teacher I've ever had. This man will always be a mentor of sorts for me. The way he presented the material with his experience was the best style of teaching I've ever experienced. All of my professors have at least 20 years of experience in the criminal justice field. This school is the best school for me and even though I hate being a student, I have to admit that this University is incredible.

Apathy

It is defined as: The absence or suppression of passion, emotion, or excitement.
Currently, this defines me. I just don't care and it's depressing. Ordinarily, I care too much and will rant and rave and prove my point to no one in particular. However, I think I have exhausted myself to a point of apathy. It was even hard for me to get worked up at seminary which is very unusual. When it comes to talking about the gospel I would define my style as a stump speaker. I get very animated and emotional. Now, I just want to sleep. School, I never care about school and I consistently get bad grades because I just don't care. Work, I don't care what the kids do, and ordinarily I work hard to play with them and do things with them outside so they can work off the eight hours of sitting. I dislike public schools, seriously I'm getting to a point where public school will not ever be an option. Really, I think I am just tired, and that is why I don't care. I'd rather sleep than do anything else and yet my procrastination leads to a severe lack of sleep. Well, perhaps I should attempt to do something useful and sign off...

My Valentine!

Isn't he adorable?!? I pretty much love him! Even though we are separated by many miles of snow that I will not venture through if I can help it, he holds a special place in my heart. HaHa! 

Speaking of... IT IS SNOWING IN TEXAS in February! This is unacceptable. It should not be snowing! I left fluffy, cold, wet, icky stuff in Montana! 

On a funny Valentine note the following is a variation of a weekly conversation I have with one of the little girls I watch:

M: "Chandler, you need a boyfriend!" 

Me: Hahahaha, why do you say that?

M: Because you're happier when you have a boyfriend and I like you better. 

Me: (Sarcastic) Wow, thanks. Well, I'll get right on that.

M: Who are you going to date? 

Me: Well, someone tall, red headed and a Texan! 

M: OOOOOOO! What's his name?!?!? Tell me, tell me, tell me! Is he on facebook I wanna see a picture!

Me: I don't know his name, in fact I've never met him. When I find him I'll let you know. Hee hee hee! 

M: *grumbles* See, you REALLY need a boyfriend... 

I've decided I'm going to start describing the bear in this picture as my boyfriend. :)  

HaPpy Valentine's day everyone!!! 

If I had a Valentine he would get this with the following poem attached to it:

Roses are red,
Your gift is Bleu,
So you can smell sweet,
With my love on you!

Have I mentioned that I LOVE this scent? It is divine!

"You did it, You really did it!"

Those words were uttered by Belle when her father finally got his bone-headed contraption to work! Which is how I would describe the process of creating a blog! But it is finally done and I actually really like the way it looks! So, now I will be more diligent in posting on my blog! "Hitch up Felipe girl, I'm on my way!"

Oh, procrastination

I've been wanting to start a blog and in fact, asked by a friend to start a blog oh, and had to start a blog for a school assignment and so, here it finally is... my blog!